about
I just want to feel like I'm fiending for something
- I know we're not on speaking terms right now but I think you should know I'm over it. It doesn't hurt me anymore.
- ...Good. That was quick, I'm glad. I was worried you wouldn't take it well.
-...That's it?
- What do you mean?
- You're not upset? That doesn't bother you?
- No? Why would I be upset that you're handling it well?
- I mean, that was the point, wasn't it? It really doesn't bother you that you can't hurt me anymore?
- Woah, woah. Pause. You're aware that I like, love you, right? You're aware that I only did this because I had to? Because my life was falling apart waiting for you to get yours together?
- Well isolating me from all my friends by telling them I abused you certainly didn't help me get my life together.
- I.. You did abuse me? And I didn't tell anyone about it because I was afraid of you? You were the one who lied to my friends saying I abused you so they would abandon me? Please tell me you haven't been using drugs.
- I don't know what the hell kind of world you're living in to genuinely believe that's what happened, because it sure as hell isn't the Earth I'm living on.
- Maybe it's not. Maybe you're not taking it as well as I thought.
Heretic: Track 8, Single 1
lyrics
Checked out of reality
Left town still a slave to the gravity with
No friends to be proud of me
When I bid farewell to the man I don't know how to be
Leave me tongue-tied 'til there's no one else around
On the outside looking down
'Cause expectations are the death of making plans
Not my nature, but I'll try the best I can
And I'll be waiting 'til I have the upper hand
How long, how long?
I thought that explanations were the way to break loose ends
Lost all patience, but I hope you understand
I'll be waiting 'til I have the upper hand
How long, how long?
And I'm better off losing my grip 'til the world says I'm worthy
But if I gotta keep living like this I'm gonna die when I'm thirty
But if it's not that bad, I won't treat it like a problem
When it's the best I've had, I've got no reason to solve 'em
I guess that much is plain to see
Out of orbit and revolving around you
Living in third person view
'Cause expectations are the death of making plans
Not my nature, but I'll try the best I can
And I'll be waiting 'til I have the upper hand
How long, how long?
I thought that explanations were the way to break loose ends
Lost all patience, but I hope you understand
I'll be waiting 'til I have the upper hand
How long, how long?
I know I'm one to make way too much out of nothing
And maybe I'm afraid, I'll admit, either one
But I just wanna feel like I'm fiending for something
Whether it's forgiveness, or closure, or blood
(...)
Expectations are the reason we're both wrong
You're not perfect, but I guess I'll play along
And I'll be waiting even if it takes me all
Night long, night long
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Heretic,
track released June 16, 2023
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